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I’ve come to realize that if I do not get a thought out of my head the second it begins to take its second spin, it only intensifies and creates a home for itself. Will I still ruminate? Definitely. Will it ease slightly? Hopefully.
I have felt for awhile now that I need to get myself back. What do I want? Where do I want to go? What types of people do I want to surround myself with? What is most important to me?
I need to come back to the place where I am genuinely myself, without hesitation and the worry about what other people are thinking and doing. Their actions only affect me if I allow them to dig themselves deep inside of me, and that is a choice. Yes, no matter what happens you will always have a feeling about it, you can’t just shut feelings off, but you can decide how you will let them affect you.
I need to get excited about life again. For the past two years it has taken every part of my being and more to just keep my head above water. Now that I feel more stable in all aspects of my life, it’s time for me to evaluate what makes me happy and what brings positivity into my life.
By identifying what brings me happiness, I will in turn discover what brings negativity. Even if something has positive aspects it can still be predominately negative and those are the things I need to start weeding out of my life, even if it seems difficult to let go of the small amount of happiness it brings.
By losing myself I lost my passion for every day life and the small joys that each day can bring. This is what saddens me most of all. It’s time for me to bring my attention inward to begin to learn who I’ve become. I know that I am going to meet a very different person, but at least that person will be authentic.

Hey Everyone!

I have spent the past week in sunny northern California with my best friend from college who lives in Aptos. What a great week it has been already. I have spent the week in the sun, watching my best friend vault (an amazing sport) and do what she loves, and getting to see all the hard work she puts into the sport and has done in the past to become a world champion. I also read a very inspiring story at Huffington Post online (click here for the story). One of the quotes I loved from this story was when Rocky Clark said:

“There’s always someone who’s got it worse than you,” he says. And yet, he adds: “There are people who are not in my situation and they take life for granted. They have no determination. They don’t know things can take a turn for the worse in the blink of an eye.” (Rocky Clark, Huffington Post)

I have found an array of inspiring quotes (some cheesy, some actually inspirational) but I felt that this one has made my top five now. Rocky is completely paralyzed from the neck down and yet he is still insisting that someone has it worse off than him, which is an incredible notion. He has learned the important lesson of not taking anything for granted, trying to live each day as if it is your last, cliché notions but perhaps cliché for a reason?

A wise Russian masseuse told me and my sister that the only person that matters is you. Outside forces will come into your life (people, jobs, etc) that are going to cause negativity and stress but you have the power to control how you will allow those forces to affect you. Yes we all get down and stressed out but I believe that if you can re-channel your energy and attempt to be a positive and optimistic person as best you can you will ultimately be happy. No one can control your happiness but you. People can help add to your happiness but if you are a truly positive person on the inside, without any help, that is all that matters. We only have one life and one chance so you might as well make the most of it.

Rosey, Devon, and I had an interesting conversation over dinner at this little Greek restaurant the other night and Rosey said that she would rather die young, but feel that she was living her life and having amazing experiences, than play it safe and live to be an old woman. (I am horribly misquoting her but you get the idea.) I think we all need to take a step back to realize what is important in our lives. What do we want? What and who ultimately makes us the most happy? Why do we allow negative influences in our life if we have the control to get rid of them? Start living for YOU and no one else.

Crazy. I had to come to California for all of this to begin to really set in, and for me to begin to take it seriously, but I believe that if you live for YOU that is what matters. Surround yourself with people you love, take the job you love, do the activities that you love, and forget the rest because it doesn’t matter. Be around people who love you, inspire you, and support you so that you can achieve what you want in life no matter what that is.

Here’s a link to Rosey’s USA Team because I am sure that many of you don’t know what vaulting is (I didn’t until I met her). The video’s commentary is in German… but they are World Champions! Rosey is the one in the middle of the video around the 2:30-3:00 minute mark with Devon Maitozo alone on the horse

World Equestrian Games Vaulting held in Kentucky

To see more videos of Rosey check out her website you won’t regret it!

Adios from sunny California!

Vaulting Competition 5/14/11